'If there were no eternal conciousness in a man, if at the bottom of everything, there were only a wild ferment, a power that, twisting in dark passions, produced everything great or inconsequential, if an unfathomable, insatable, emptiness lay hid beneath everything - what would life be but despair?' (Kierkegaard)

In other words, if there is no God or higher power to tell us right from wrong, if we act only because of the emotions inside ourselves, then how can we hope? How can be believe in the goodness of people?

Lately I feel like I've lost control of myself and I don't know who I am; because of this, I've lost the trust of someone I really care about. I think I'm going to take some time to be alone, to forget about day to day stuff and find myself. Normally its easy for me to have hope in people, in God, but right now I don't even have hope in myself.

Its kinda scary to admit that I need time for this but I do and I don't intend to be here (or anywhere else, in real life or online) much, for a while...

i hope you're all surviving the winter or enjoying the summer, wherever you are